The Wading Game

Kris Millgate

“I bet that guy is staring at you because you’re pretty,” says my son.

Since I haven’t brushed my hair, I bet that guy isn’t staring because I’m pretty. He’s staring because we’re minorities. Woman with child. No man among us. There’s no way we know what we’re doing.

But we do.

I efficiently back in my truck with the only Idaho license plate on this dirt road. Locals lose the Henry’s Fork of the Snake River to tourists in the summer. I’m parked between Utah and Washington. Texas two rigs over.

My son hides his iPhone under his seat just in case anyone in this fishy crowd has hot hands for electronics. Then he scrambles out of the truck proclaiming he’ll dress himself.

But he doesn’t.

He doesn’t even know which set of gear is his. Passing a decade now, he’s fished his whole life either on my back or in my boat. This is his first time in waders. He’s almost big enough to fit in one of the spare pairs I’ve been saving for him.

He says, “Why don’t waders go to your neck?”

I tell him, “If water is up to your neck, you’re not fishing, you’re floating.”

I unload two sets of waders and boots stashed among our mountain bikes in the bed of the truck. I have two rods, but only string one while finding my son’s feet in neoprene booties and shoving them in wading boots before attaching gravel guards. The get up is too big. His smile is bigger.

“Rock guards are legit,” he says. “I need these for all my shoes. Especially my school shoes because I get rocks in them at recess.”

Stare-hard watches our circus with a scowl as the sun sets. He’s the typical Henry’s Fork angler. A bit heavy on weight and wrinkles. Head fringed in white hair. He’s looking at us over magnified glasses. The kind aging eyes use to thread fly line through hook holes.

When I don’t act bothered by his unwelcome, he closes in and opens up. He’s from Washington. Been here a week. Based on his gripes, I can’t figure out why he’s still here.

“No flies. No fish,” he says looking at us like we don’t belong.

But we do.

I know there are flies. I also know there are fish. I caught my largest Idaho fish ever, a 24” brown trout, on this water a few weeks ago. I’m still having flashbacks. There are fish in here for certain, but I keep that to myself and let my son cover the awkward pause of my silent reminisce.

“I wish there was a superhero that used a fishing rod,” he says while turning away from stare-hard and aiming my rod case at geese like it’s a shotgun.

He continues to chatter like he has all day. He’s a lot like me in that way. Thoughts spilling out as fast as they sprout, subject skipping with ease.

On our mountain bike ride earlier, we played genie. I wished for the banishment of all bad people. He wished for no Internet dead zones. We’re both into video. Me for my job as a journalist. Him for his entertainment as a gamer. His devices, and mine, are now out of reach. We have fish to catch.

But we don’t.

We watch from the bank. The surface of the water is flat. If a gulper rises, I’ll see its head crack the calm. Stare-hard, ready well ahead of us, is already standing in the river, but he’s not watching ripples. He’s watching us. I hear a gulp upstream. Stare-hard can’t hear it mid-river. I steer my son through knee-high grass and head upstream.

Stare-hard smiles. It’s possible he’s amused by my son’s jig along the single-track trail. He’s taking hip-hop during hockey off-season and he’s grooving with excitement. But in all reality, stare-hard is probably smiling because he just realized we’re not getting in the water next to him. I know better. He’s of the no-dink-around crowd. We’re here to dink around.

But we don’t.

Five brown drakes drift by. Three trout heads rise. Game on. We’re in. One rod between us. I place my son directly in front of me. His head is sternum high. I can watch well what fish are doing and still keep my son upright while he fascinates over a new sensation.

“I feel like I’m in a bumble beekeeper suit,” he says. “Nothing can get in my shoes and water compresses to the sides of my legs. It feels awesome.”

I’m a lefty. He’s a righty. This is good. I wrap my left arm around his chest, tighten his back to my front and guide his right-handed cast with my right arm. Right is my weaker cast. It won’t take over like my left does. The softer touch works better for beginners. A few casts in and he wants freedom. I slowly release him from my hold. His brightly dotted emoji ballcap throws color in the low light as he casts solo. His aim is true for short length. A fish rises to his fly. He’s going to hook.

But he doesn’t.

Fish or no fish. He’s caught the magic and that’s what matters. It’s last light. It’s my son’s first wade. Stare-hard can stare all he wants. Maybe watching us will remind him why he really started wading way back when.

“When I grow up, I’m going to make my kid go wading with me instead of sitting around in the house playing video games,” my son says. “This is legit.”

About the Author

Tight Line Media CEO Kris Millgate is a bold storyteller, but she wasn’t born brave. Millgate, an outdoor journalist born the same year as the Endangered Species Act, grew up painfully shy and afraid of beards. She spent a decade in TV news before starting Tight Line Media in 2006. With three decades of multimedia storytelling, the Emmy-winning reporter traverses the country in search of dynamic topics. She’s outgrown her shy side too. She talks to strangers daily and she hangs out with beards often.

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At first, it was enough to just know where it was. Seeing it once or twice a day on my dresser reminded me both of the trip, and the penny’s potential. Finally, on the way out the door to another fishing trip, I put the penny into my pocket as a way to curry favor with the fishing gods. When I thought about where the penny had come from, I figured it might have a little bit of a fishing mojo after spending so much time in the lake. The trip was a success and the penny earned a permanent place in my pocket.

Over the next year, I dutifully moved the penny from pocket to pocket as I went about my life, making sure to keep it safe and close by for those moments when I needed a blast of luck. At times, I’d pull it out and flip it. Heads meant I was on the right track. Tails meant I needed to slow down. Other times, I’d fidget with it as I thought through a problem. Eventually, I could tell how my life was going based on how clean the penny was. A bright, shiny penny meant I’d been thinking a lot. A dull, grimy penny meant I wasn’t as worried about things. 

It was, as it turned out, a pretty great year. The twelve months that I held on to the penny weren’t always easy, but things were moving in a fantastic direction for my family and me. I know the penny wasn’t the cause of that luck. But I still attributed a good amount to it, just in case.

When I returned to Onaman Lake a year later, the penny came with me. For the most part, it was there because it was always in my pocket. But a part of me felt like I should return the penny to the lake, to give back what it had offered me over the preceding year. The closer I got to the return trip, the stronger the feeling became. The superstitious part of me knew that keeping the penny wasn’t an option. Real or not, you don’t tempt the gods. If nature offers you something, you respect the gift and give thanks. If you say you’re going to return it, you follow through. 

That thought followed me all week as I thought about what to do with the penny. I found the answer to my problem on the windowsill of the cabin. In the middle of a handful of change left by another guest was another American penny, this one from 1960. I would have preferred another 2023, but this was better. It was older and had acquired more experience than the one I had. It would do nicely as an offering. 

As I watched the older penny sail through the air, I thanked the lake for the year that had been and the one that was coming up. I’m almost 100% sure I would have been fine either way, but as an angler and a naturally superstitious person, I think it always pays to err on the side of caution. It costs so very little to give back, to honor the resource. Just about a cent in fact. 

You don’t tempt the old gods.